Perimenopause In the Thirties

I kept being told that I am too young for perimenopause.  The sad part of it, it isn't so uncommon or unheard of. There are just a small group of women that go through it so young and an even smaller group that go through it while still in their 20's given that they have medical issues tied to the onset. I fear my only blood related sister will have this unfortunate happening since she suffers monthly cysts that burst and leave her in pain. It has been determined that she has a condition where she can grow hair rapidly and not just on her head but in awkward spots. It comes in thick and she suffers migraines. Her condition is very different than mine. I forget the name of the condition only that recall it being mentioned in Red Book about seven to eight years ago. I believe my sister may never be able to have kids. As for me I have had plenty of issues since i was a young teen.

I wont go into my medical history but I will only talk about being young and perimenopause. It started last year in September. I kept track of my time of the month. It never showed up. It has been well over a year and nothing has improved. I have had some spotting. I suffer headaches beyond my comprehension, mood swings that don't go well with already having severe depression. I have many of the symptoms that women experience just before they settle into full menopause. i have read that being like this can last from as little as a year to ten years. My mother was in her late 30's when I noticed her change. She didn't believe me and we fought much of the time due to her mood changes. She felt everyone was attacking her when actually we only wanted to let her know what it was.

This phase of life honestly scares me. It's not something most women look forward too. The hot flashes the night sweats, the inability to sleep proper. Headaches are known to happen and when you have a family history of them, they don't get any better. The lack of sexual desire has bugged me the most. Luckily, my husband hasn't held this against me. He hasn't hit any biological change just yet and he should be so lucky. LOL Because after all the changes men go through, I can only imagine how he will take it.

I write today because the changes have hit me hard lately and during the time of year that stress hits a high. My headaches seem to go away with a strong headache pill only to come back a short time later and strike me right behind the eyes and surge down my back and neck. I not only dislike how I feel about being in my thirties, dislike my job and hope to change it soon to add on top of everything, dislike how this month seems to be the hardest I have ever experienced, I dislike how my body seems to turn on me and not act like my friend. And yet I continue to treat it like I were young only because I never got the chance. It's like an identity crisis of sorts. I refuse to take medical to have things "normal". I only take a headache pill and try to get a good nights rest. This last part of hard due to a three year only who wakes up at night from nightmares and also wakes up early no matter the time in which he is put to bed.

I hope my day gets good. As I have had good news already and it can only continue to have good news.